Don’t Let Bitterness Rob You

I haven’t made any big changes to my life, which was something I promised myself when my husband died. I still live in the same house, drive the same car, and work at the same job. I didn’t want to make any significant lchanges because I felt like I needed time to discover the person that I would become and what that person needs. It turns out that the life I was living before still suits me.

One small positive change that I have worked on is to not let bitterness rob me of my happiness, and to try to find beauty and joy in my life every day. It is possible to find something to be grateful for every single day, and that should be something I seek to find and focus on.

Of course I still wish my husband were here. I wish he could be sharing my life and the life of our family. But it does me no good to focus on such things, because I can’t change anything. This is the life God is giving me, and I must live it as well as I can, trying to fulfill whatever purpose I still have. And trying to honor my husband, too.

I think of Phillipians 4:8 “Finally brothers, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy – meditate on these things.”