Yesterday I took Emmy for a walk after church. We walked some trails at a nearby park and I found myself looking for some beauty in my surroundings, something I realized I haven’t done since Billy passed away. We walked along the lake trail, or I did anyway, while Emmy ran ahead and through the woods, sniffing with joy. With every step, I could imagine Billy with me. We hiked those trails a lot, sometimes talking and laughing, but more often just walking and taking in the peace and beauty of the woods, happy to be together.
I was so very exhausted later that evening. It took a lot out of me to face those trails without him, and feel his absence so sharply. I hope I can manage to return to those trails regularly again, in honor of Billy.
Saturday I spotted the enormous bone. I guess Emmy never lost it, but she moves it around so I was lucky to have seen it, almost as big as it was the day I gave it to her. It was gnawed on, but not much. Later that day it was gone again, hidden away for safekeeping.
Today I was off work for Columbus Day and slept late. I was slightly disgusted with myself, but then decided I don’t care. I spent the day gathering clothes, toiletries and the medicines I will need to take to Chicago when Joanna goes into labor. She is 5 days late now, so it could happen anytime. I cannot wait to meet my newest granddaughter, and pray for Joanna to have an easy delivery.
A Little Bit of Everything, With Love 